Dear Heavenly Father,

I am so sorry... I am sorry because I feel as though I have not thanked you enough. What you have done for me in the past year is something that is deserving of more than a thank you here or there. I mean you answered my prayer! Albet not in the way that I may have imagined or even wanted from time to time, but you kept your promise. You say, "Ask, and it will be given to you..." Well I asked for you to use me in "whatever" way you could for your Kingdom. How was I to know you would be sending me to the hospital? Because the doctors couldn't make sense of my levels, it opened an opportunity to say that it must be You. Or how about sitting in dialysis for nine months, that too opened opportunities to share about You. And now after the transplant, whether it be through the media or through conversation, people are hearing who you are and what you have done. I think I can confidently say that you are using me for your kingdom.

Now Father I must again appologize because I am beginning to become impatient. You have healed me so quickly that I am looking to the future and what I will be doing. I need your help in focussing not on what I want, or what I think is best, but on what You want. I do not want to be like the sheep whose master is leading it down a path towards a magnificent mountain stream, and instead of trusting and waiting for the crystal clean snow-fed waters below, stubbornly stops to drink from the small muddy puddles beside the trail because it thinks it best. I need your help trusting where you are leading me and being content with that which you provide.

God, thank you for those that you have put in my life to walk alongside me during this time. If it were not for their constant support and trust in you, I would be having a hard time during this season. I know that you are concerned with so much in our world and for you to be so personable with me and my situation still blows my mind. I am so thankful.

Amen