Hey everyone. I really enjoy reading the comments that you make to the posts. Some of you I have never met, which makes me appreciate our Lord even more knowing that He has laid my condition on your hearts to keep me in your prayers. It is really special. And then there are some of you that I haven't seen in almost six years; when we were arriving at Capernwray. The love of the Lord truly does surround the World.

Last time I posted I told you of the wonderful possibility of having the kidney transplant in early December. That still is our target date with my dad needing to go through some more tests. Today, however, I wanted to be really candid and share with you what I have been thinking and praying about recently.

As you can imagine I have been thinking about my future. I wish I could tell you that it is crystal clear, that I know exactly what I am going to be doing, but I don't. I know that the time I have been given for the past seven months has been a time of preparation, I just don't know what it is for yet.

Amy and I sat down today for two reasons. One, we wanted to talk about what the future looks like for us, a job, schooling, budgets, etc. More of a logistical outlook on things. And two, most importantly, we wanted to bring all of this stuff to the Lord. We recognize that we can try and plan all we want but if the Lord is missing, there really is no point. Trust me, I know.

I have been feeling burdened with the financial set back due to the kidney. The reality is that after I have the transplant, and God willing receive it well, I am going to need a job. I don't know where that is yet and I am feeling anxious about it. The reason is because I want to be able to start the rest of my life as soon as I can. This includes getting married and starting school. Two hard things to do without stability.

I know that powerful things happen when groups pray together. So I am asking you to join me once again in prayer. The kidney transplant is still a huge prayer request, specifically for my dad and his tests. But also I would ask you to join me in praying for some other specifics. I am looking for a job that is flexible with the hospital visits after the transplant, a substantial amount of income, and close proximity to my house. I have also set a very strict budget so that I can be saving more specifically for a ring and school. This is something that I really need the Lords help with in being disciplined to stick to the budget. I would also ask that you pray for me and my attitude. Lately I have been feeling restless, both during the day and at night when I try to sleep. I guess I am just really tired of waiting. Once again, however, the doctor told my dad that we are cruising at incredible speed through the transplant process. That's good news to hear.

I think there is an old saying that people use when incredible things happen, do you want to try and guess it? Oh come on, it will be fun. I'll give you three seconds to think of it. Ready...GO!!!
Well for those of you who are incredibly smart...THE LORD IS GOOD!!!!!

My dad met with the transplant coordinator yesterday and came away with some great news. Pending things go smoothly with his renal CT angiagram, the last test to DQ him as a donor canidate, we have penciled in DECEMBER 4th as the transplant date!!! How exciting is that? We would just really ask that you all start showering that date with prayer, one that it remains possible, and two that everything with the transplant procedure will go well. My dad or I will post more about the process as it nears.

With all this excitement I sometimes forget how hard this whole process has been. I have to be honest in telling you all that there have been times when I have been wearing a mask. I constantly run into people who will ask how things are going. Typically they are going well but there is always this underlying thing that for some reason is hard to talk to people about. Being on dialysis three days a week and having that pretty much govern your life takes a pretty heavy toll. And I am the kind of person that internalizes a lot and then when it breaks, it really breaks. Last weekend, after a long time, I finally broke. I just felt so exhausted with all of this, tired of not feeling normal, tired of not having any kidneys! Now I know that there are great plans ahead for me, and I am excited for them, I really am. But there are times when I really hate this season of my life. I mean did the Israelites like wondering around the desert all those years? Granted it was primarily there fault because of their sinning. But how cool was it when they were able to enter in to what God had planned for them? Yeah that is what I am looking foward to. The new season of my life, starting DECEMBER 4th